He got his mission call and I fell in love!

In my last post I told you about the night things started happening between Spencer and I (Friday, December 2, 2011). To be honest I fought the feelings I was starting to develop for him. I mean I was just getting out of my marriage, he would be leaving soon on a mission, and then of course there was the fact that I'm 8 years older than him. However, for the next week we hung out together every day except Tuesday. We flirted, we talked, we held hands, we snuggled, and he begun to sweep me off my feet.

Friday, December 9th, 2011, is a night I will NEVER forget! I had invited a few friends over to have dinner and make Christmas cookies together. Of course, Spencer was coming and I was excited to see him. I got home and was cooking dinner anxiously awaiting all my friends to show up. However, they all cancelled for one reason or another. I texted Spencer to see why he was late and he said that he should be there as soon as he could. I finished making dinner and then sat on the couch in the living room, mad that he was late and no one else was coming. I sat and I waited. Soon I heard the back door in the kitchen open. It was common for my friends to just walk in through this door. Spencer walked into my living room with a HUGE smile on his face and announced "Dear Elder Wasden..." I knew what that meant, HE GOT HIS MISSION CALL!!! I jumped up off the couch and ran over to hug him. I attacked him so hard that he almost fell backwards. LOL! I was so excited for him! He would be leaving in 3 months. That seemed a long ways away.

We ate dinner together and talked. Then we started listening to different music on the computer. He searched for a song and hit play when he found it. He then stood up, offered me his hand, and asked if I would dance with him. He held me in his arms and we slow danced while he sung the words of the song sweetly to me. I wanted to kiss him right then, but was so confused about all these feelings I was having. When the song ended, I asked him why he had chosen that song and he said that it was because that's how he felt about me. Here's the song:

 

We spent the rest of the evening talking, listening to music, and he even signed (ASL) a few Christmas songs to me, which made me very happy since I had studied ASL in college and loved to sign. We just clicked together so well! We liked a lot of the same things and had many of the same dreams for our lives. 

As he was getting ready to leave, he gave me a hug and said, "Olive you." The night before we had been walking around a small town downtown and I said seen a restaurant called "Olive You" which I had read out loud and he had responded "Olive you too." I thought he was joking at the time so I laughed and kept walking, but now he was saying it again. I didn't know what to say, so I said nothing. 

 (Spencer and I the night we saw the "Olive You" restaurant.)

After he had left, I got ready for bed and then sat in my bed and wrote in my journal. Did I love him? Was all of this real? I had loved my husband Sherman with all my heart and part of me still did. Was I ready to fall in love again? To move on? I wrote about the night in my journal. As I wrote, I realized that I was falling in love with him! I also realized that I wanted to wait for him while he was on his mission. I didn't know what would happen between us, but I knew that there was a very special connection between us that I could not explain. I felt something with him that I had never felt with any guy before! 

My phone beeped and I looked at it to find a text from Spencer saying that he had made it home safely. I texted him back and said, "Well get some sleep and have sweet dreams! Good night. Olive u. :)" He wrote back, "Olive you too." We were falling in love!